Personal Legend

I've been reading The Alchemist lately, and I definitely picked it at the best time because now as a published author, I think what’s next? What do I need to do? What can I do? 

I am here. I’m finally where I always wanted to be. Just took a leap of faith into my dream. My hope. And it’s not what I thought it was gonna be. Not saying I regret what I did (I think it was one of the best decisions I made in my entire life). Just that what happened in real life was not what I had pictured. 

I wake up; I brush my teeth; I make my coffee; I go to work. But now add author to the mix. I come home; I shower; I eat; I imagine; I write. Day after day. Night after night. 

With this structure comes with a bit of challenges. The moments of just wanting to sleep and not getting out of bed. The moments of creativity that come at the weirdest times (like after talking with a customer at my job or when I'm driving home from work). Days pass, and the season is changing. I dream of the next best step. But with that next best step comes with a lot of questions. A lot of how’s, what’s, and why’s. 

People always talk about that amazing feeling of peace in knowing and following your personal legend. The feeling of happiness you wouldn’t trade for anything. The knowing that you’re where you belong. The feeling of leaving your mark on the world, no matter how small it is. And I feel it. I see it when I look at my book. The work that I created from a little, precious idea.

But not many talk about the hardships that come with knowing and following your personal legend. The working 9-5 Monday through Friday and still trying to find the energy to write. The feeling that you’re not doing enough. The thieves who try to stop, block, or delay your personal legend. The feeling of fear and anxiety coming over me  as I contemplate quitting the 9-5 and fully focusing on my business. The feeling of leaving security and getting out of my comfort zone.

I see the good that comes out of being in my purpose. But I must also acknowledge that there are challenges on this journey too. I don’t really have a good turn to this story because I’m currently working through it. I hope that the good comes while I’m pushing through these bad times or that I can see the good happening while I'm working through the bad times. I’ll let you know as I get there .